My dreadful Visa Application

I got denied yes... I did... because I do not have a job right now :P But, I am not really affected by the fact that I was denied of my VISA. Nalungkot din ako kasi hindi muna ako makakapunta sa states and syempre kahit sino naman ayaw ng feeling of rejection diba???

But my experience in the US embassy was really an eye opening to the complexity of HUMAN BEHAVIOR. Andun yung ang daming nagsusunget na mga tao and all because siksikan daming tao, and anxious sila to get their visa.

Experience #1: When I was falling in line with my mom and brother we were kinda lost syempre kasi parang wala naman instructions san pupunta dba? So I kindly approached a lady and said "Dito po ba pipila? ano po bang pila ito? Then I sensed her irritation but managed to to be cool, and said "Diba, san ba kayo dapat pinapapila, ano ba sabi sa inyo? Why don't you ask the people over there kung san kayo?."Then, Sabi ko "Ohh okay, alright thank you anway :D " Then, she replied with a plastic, unreal "smile" and said "You're welcome".

I could understand, maybe she wasn't in the mood and the situation was stressful for her. (wala lang nakakaaliw lang)

Experience#2: When I was about to take my finger scanning, the staff of the embassy who are also filipinos so to speak (brown skin, typical nose of a filipino, black hair and etc.) are not really accomodating to the elderly. THey do not use PO or OPO for the elderly.  They don't even maintain a professional behavior to address these elderly people as Ma'am or Sir. " O dyan, hindi ganyan... Yung bag mo!"

I don't really understand why are they acting like that. Are they preventing some sort of situation? Are they trying to be intimidating for a valid reason so fellow filipinos won't take advantage of them? Are ther acting this way to scare people and potential troublemakers?

If their reasona are valid, I hope that they still have their VALUES in tact-the basic essence of their being. I have no right to judge them that they are "Trying to act, think and speak like americans". I know a lot of americans and they are professionals! They know how to be courteous and yet maintain a healthy professional boundary. It just ticks me off that my fellow filipino people are acting this way. I don't know if they have acquired this "superiority complex" because they work in the US embassy.

Maybe something is wrong..really wrong... or is this the real world???? I dunno if I was too sheltered before so I wasn't able to see this kind of madness firsthand. This experience is really a test to my personal values as a person-the beliefs that give importance to.

To america, maybe next time :P It's just disheartening that I can't see my sister this december.